For classes (finally). Two waitlisted classes. AND I better have my license by then otherwise I'll be doomed to take the bus and amble around like a sad no-car girl... that sounds like bad engrish.

SO I'm excited to be going back to school. And look forward to not be working. I know I haven't been working that long, but I just... blah. I'd much rather be working at a much more laid back place like Aaron Brothers. Maybe I'll be able to get a job there. That place is never busy like Michaels is, and it's smaller and has more "fine art" crap there, which is much more my pace. They hours would probably be easier too. Gosh I wish I weren't working at a place where I am berated by old women all day. I'll start sniffing out other places once my contract at Michaels gets close to running out. Only 2.5 weeks left anyway. Gosh.

I feel like I'm coping better with my losses, at least for right now. I still miss my friends. I still miss Tony, but I've come to some sort of terms with the fact that he's probably hurting me for stupid reasons and his actions are selfish... If he's going to hurt me like this, he isn't worth crying over like I've been doing. My sister says I let boys push me around, but I don't know about that.

I'm pretty under productive as of right now.

I've got a lot of growing up to do.

I miss him everyday. I am scared of losing it all. I mean completely. Breakups aren't supposed to end this way. We're not supposed to still love each other. Through all the strange pain though, I'm glad we do...

I hate dreaming we are back together. I don't want to dream that. I only want to dream it is it's actually going to happen. I am in love; and it hurts.

He said I didn't do anything. You know...

even though my eyes are red from all the tears, I'm still happy I got to talk to him... even if I feel sad...I still love him so much that I love hearing him speak to me and be so lovingly patient and understanding. Love.

He's not the only one out there like this... but he's the only one I know and the only one I'm scared of losing. Losing that friendship, that connection, that everything so basic that our relationship was built around. We can be friends... we are friends. We're just not ready to hang out. He's not. I'm probably not either.

So I failed my driving test. Ran over a curb while backing up. Didn't think it was fair, but oh well.

ANYWAY THANKS DMV >:U

Still working. Working like a dog. Low man on the totem pole... they make me work random hours. I hate closing. Still, thankful I have a job though. Keeps me from stuffing my face during the day and... I dunno.

Not much else to report. I'm boring. :3

I am so freakin' lazy. Second day of work and I'm already sick of it! Haha!

I think it's just because I don't have the hang of things just yet.

Gotta pay the parents. Because I feel like a big fat disappointment. Oh well.

DURH.

First day! Oh exciting.

The real work starts tomorrow though. Go buy some pipe cleaners to keep me employed.